"
"Will not you accompany me?" said I. "Sure you will?"
"I will be with you, or near you," said he. "Go you on before."
I hurried away as he directed me, and imprudently asked some of
Queensberry's guards if such and such a young man passed by
them going out from the city. I was answered in the affirmative,
and till then had doubted of my friend's intelligence, it was so
inconsistent with a profligate's life to be so early astir. When I got
the certain intelligence that my brother was before me, I fell a-
running, scarcely knowing what I did; and, looking several times
behind me, I perceived nothing of my zealous and arbitrary
friend. The consequence of this was that, by the time I reached St.
Anthony's well, my resolution began to give way. It was not my
courage, for, now that I had once shed blood in the cause of the
true faith, I was exceedingly bold and ardent, but, whenever I was
left to myself, I was subject to sinful doubtings. These always
hankered on one point. I doubted if the elect were infallible, and
if the Scripture promises to them were binding in all situations
and relations. I confess this, and that it was a sinful and shameful
weakness in me, but my nature was subject to it, and I could not
eschew it.
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